At times you can go so astray, completely driven off the straight path. Like youtve gone so far away you can never reach the stage you were before.
Then Allah sends his mercy upon you, that 1% of Mercy. 1%! Where he lifts those veils that cloud your sinful heart and allows you to return to him.
My dear sisters and brothers, Is this not a sign of how much he loves you? and how he only wants that which is best for you?
The reason why you feel at such an ultimate low is because sometimes you have to know what its like to be so far away from Allah in order to appreciate the nearness to him, like an llness helps you appreciate good health. Its Allah teaching you by means of opposite feelings. So you will always remember, that the feeling of being close to him, overpowers all.